Cloudy sky upon us, the starts are not as bright, they are
making their way through the fog of the night. Uncomfortable silence, there is
no words to say, or anything to add. Eye lids are turning heavy on me, closing
my eyes, getting me ready for an uncertain night of sleep.
Sailing into the world of thoughts, an ocean of memories brings
me weird thoughts, how about us is the voice of the question, desolation is reaching
into my soul, I know it is just a feeling of the moment, but it is a feeling
that questions home won’t be no more, feelings of sadness covers my heart,
painting a picture of strength, once again far from home.
A battle inside my mind presents, it’s holding my heart by
the hand, hiding it and protecting it, not letting any of those ghosts to approach,
it just rushes quickly to arrive into the land of sleep to wait until this
moment stay in the pass. My subcontinent stays on alert, in guard taking care
of the ship anchored in the land of the living. Desolation still it feels, as the
clock tics, second by second, how long does it feels.
Deep in my sleep, darkness I see, a shadow behind walls is
waiting, and waiting. I wonder, is it a mirage?, or this is real. I cover myself,
and turn my head away, trying to sink into myself. A sudden noise shakes me
awake, A vision of color, sun and dancing I get to see, this is weird, I tell
myself, this is not real, my eye lids close for me, letting me get lost in my
sleep. Another shake I feel again, I turn my head, trough the night light
coming from the window, a shadow I perceive, slowly approaching and reaching
after me. Feeling cautious I feel; in a foreign language, he speaks at me. With
open arms and hands grabs me close to him. He is happy and smiling, he is happy
to be with me. Happy I certainly feel, comfortable to be there with him. I hug
him, I kiss him, I wrap myself around him. I feel happy you are here with me.
He tells me a story where moments ago he finished reading, for what I hear this
is exactly like the vision moments ago I got to see. A happy moment, a warm
heart from each other, is the beautiful feeling of the moment. A sudden spark
clicks, my mind tells me, this is not for real, come back to safety. My heart wishes
this to be real; it is just a projection of the land where everyone sleeps.
I come back to my desolation, wishing something of that mirage
comes with me, a couple more times this beautiful mirage repeats, I keep
falling for it. Moments of happiness I feel, but soon I get to bring back next
to my guardian, where I find myself asleep.
Once more I felt shaken, my heart happy it feels, It thinks here
is that beautiful moment, It wishes to be real. My mind tells me time to come
back, it’s time for things to become real. I am awake now, shadows trough a foggy
morning I see around the room. I turn my head to find and see the one who brings
me happiness. He is in deep sleep.
Something tells me, it is not a fairy tale of my dream, I wake
up to reality, feeling the unknown of a day, I feel a tear running inside of
me, wishing hugs, kisses, smiles and stories to be there, just like in my
dream; as a shinny day to be. I move out of bed, to start once again, a day.
I Love You.
One day before work I decided to go for a little walk to a nearby
store; trough the isles, Christmas decorations, smiling shoppers with family and
friends. I thought I made a mistake about the walk; on my way out I noticed a
small plush animal looking at me, it was a frog holding up a star. It looked
like it was smiling at me; this made me smile warming up my heart. I knew then, that
I can have my own Christmas time, and to know wherever I am, I am loved, as
well I love them.
