Since I left this place,
My thoughts have been misplaced.
Life seems like haven’t changed,
But a taste of different,
It is all over the place.
Lost in control,
It is not longer the case,
Who does care?
What I have to say.
Distant observer I tell myself.
I question my life,
I question the existence of myself.
What is the reason to be a human been?
Freedom from the heart,
Freedom from this land I seek.
I feel so disconnected of everything,
When we have been connected to earth.
Another stronger feeling, I felt
To pass away, and let myself
To become something else,
Or should I say someone else….
My thoughts have been misplaced.
Life seems like haven’t changed,
But a taste of different,
It is all over the place.
Lost in control,
It is not longer the case,
Who does care?
What I have to say.
Distant observer I tell myself.
I question my life,
I question the existence of myself.
What is the reason to be a human been?
Freedom from the heart,
Freedom from this land I seek.
I feel so disconnected of everything,
When we have been connected to earth.
Another stronger feeling, I felt
To pass away, and let myself
To become something else,
Or should I say someone else….
Hello Chris, hope you are doing well. I understand my posting to your blog is presumptuous, I am moved and feel compelled to comment. First, I follow you on Stumblr and though I have had you bookmarked for a while, this is the first chance I've had to actually scroll through and of course first thing is your blog from this morning... It interests me b/c I too have had those same thoughts at different times throughout my life, starting at a very young age, e.g. "What is this all about?" and "Why am I here?" and "I am obviously different than others, so what does this mean?", the last question being the most profound of course! Well, I'm 41 now and can say that I really have never answered those questions to my satisfaction... Being raised in a Southern Baptist, in South Texas!, home/church... Well I'm sure you get the gist... I can say that I really am ok for the most part with my life today! It certainly has been a struggle, dealing with depression and seeking therapy at different times, but have so far managed to be ok and do well for myself. Btw, I am currently in therapy and taking psycho-tropics, probably the rest of my life.. And I am single and celibate by choice... I guess my question to you is, are you reaching out for help and/or understanding due to prolonged depression or is this post mearly song lyrics that you enjoy? If this is you reaching out, I encourage you strongly to let someone, anyone, in on your state of mind! Things do get better. You can be "ok" with yourself and move forward.... Well, thanks for reading this post and I'm hoping you do not believe me to be a lunatic lol! Yes, most answers to life remains a mystery, the ability to b/c strong is in your reach. People do care and are listening/reading and caring about how you are...... Take good care and again, hope my intrusion has helped you in some small way.... <3<3
ReplyDeleteThank You for your comment. I am alright now. There are times that hit me the need to write. Usually is when I am very sad, or very happy. Obviously "Happy" haven't been around much. Many times I felt I have so much to say, and no one to listen or understand, that is how this blog started. When I write comes from different sources of inspiration. Something triggers it. This last blog, wonders I had, came back to my mind. And than words just came in the way I wrote. Thank You again to take the time to read and share your thoughts. Are appreciated. In a way we are not alone, just distant of everyone else who goes trough the same things.
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