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I remember eight years ago, where I was. I was still trying to figure out live, and mostly myself. I really didn’t have much back then, as I was starting a new life, the only thing I had myself, and proudly I stand on that, with hopes for a good future. Yesterday I turned 37, and having happy feelings about it, as well sad; I arrived to this age, especially because one amazing situation marked my life forever. The man I loved with all my heart and soul was 37 years old back then. Accomplished man, settle in what he wanted, his house, car, career, pretty much a good life. A man I admire and placed my eyes and heart on. I worked my live close to his standards and learn some new ones for myself. He was 37 years old, I was 29. July 2^nd 2004 is the day when my life changed. The only and truly time where I felt the world around me is not other than just see through his eyes, his touch. I found happiness; as many of us we had hard times, we had great times, but that incomparable connection we had built a strong bond, in some point I felt in love, that feeling 8 years later still lay sleeping in me. No need to write again things that happened between the years, as we no longer are together. I just will say, I died the day everything came to the end, and I became a different man. Now I am the one who is 37 years old. I have accomplished a good live, settle in it, I own my house, a great car, and I do have a good career. but I no longer have my love.  I won’t complain, I am not longer upset for it, is what it is. I truly believe I never again will fall in love. Now these days I am single, I don’t have anyone in my life, and I am not looking either. I care for my loving cat who arrive into my life, that is all what I need. About the future is uncertain. About the matters of the heart, I don’t hope for anything. I had the best of the best, after that what else is there to look for. Just to keep myself smiling day after day. I am now 37, same age as you 8 years ago.

A Bliss In The Wind

A bliss in the wind, waking up memories that were sleeping in me.

Autumn was coming, and we both set to catch this moment before disappears.

I was laying in the grounds taking a photo of you... smiling looking at me,

with those eyes as sweet as honey bee.

Timeless moment in the road we felt, next to us the sunset was falling,

in a pink blue sky I felt in love, we belonged to each other......

Once upon the time with you stays in my dreams.

Temor

Es un sueno el pensar que un día encontrare lo que se ha perdido, lo encontrado ha dejado una cicatriz en mi corazón, y temeroso yo vivo en sentir nuevamente lo que me ha robado la sonrisa en esta vida. El recuerdo siempre y por siempre estará presente. Maldito destino.

Corazón Perdido

Un día fue, cuando te vi
Un día es el encontrar 
y ver en el mas allá.
Conflictos del corazón 
al extranar el sentirse 
lleno de alegria
ese calor humano
que una vez llegue a sentir.
El corazón extraña aquellos momentos
que se fueron junto a ti.

El corazón temeroso se encuentra

de volver a sentir lo que fue el ayer

herido se encuentra, y corre lejos

a llorar las penas,

al extranar las dulces memorias

que fueron al estar junto a ti.

Te amo en mi memoria

Te amo en mis recuerdos

Extraño lo que fuiste en el ayer

y el  amor que fue para nosotros

Tu quieres volver corazón

pero no se encuentra nada

Tu quieres volver corazón

pero no sientes nada.

F R E E

Since I left this place,
My thoughts have been misplaced.
Life seems like haven’t changed,
But a taste of different,
It is all over the place.
Lost in control,
It is not longer the case,
Who does care?
What I have to say.
Distant observer I tell myself.
I question my life,
I question the existence of myself.
What is the reason to be a human been?
Freedom from the heart,
Freedom from this land I seek.
I feel so disconnected of everything,
When we have been connected to earth.
Another stronger feeling, I felt
To pass away, and let myself
To become something else,
Or should I say someone else….

After Meeting You

Dreaming a dream of happiness

Dreaming a dream full of starts

Dreaming not longer have to dream.

Generations are concepts of the past

When the heart wants to feel alive.

Illusions and excitement,

moving all inside of me.

Few situations making me feel

How worth it is to be here.

Keep knocking at my door

I am just behind

waiting...... and ready.....

To open and let you in.

Keep smiling at me,

The joy of two,

nothing compares,

how great is to be......

Some One Like You - Olvidame Tu.

(Photo Year 2010)

I heard that you settled down, That you found a man and you're married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess he gave you things I didn't give to you. Old friend, why are you so shy? Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, but I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it. I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded, that for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I wont find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too. Don't forget me, I beg I remember you said: "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"

You know how the time flies, only yesterday was the time of our lives; We were born and raised in a summer haze, bound by the surprise of our glory days. Nothing compares, No worries or cares, Regrets and mistakes, They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

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Todas nuestras tardes son bajo estrellas escondidas luces que mi corazón
se pensaría. Desnudarme como soy siendo así como la arena que resbala en tu querer
por donde fuera. Darte para retenerte,recelar si no me miras con tus ojos,
tu boca, tu, sabia que es mio. Responde a mi nombre, si te lo susurran, arranca
de todo mi piel que es tan tuyo, que arda mi cuerpo si no estás conmigo amor. Olvidame tú que yo no puedo no voy a entender el amor sin tí.
Olvidame tú que yo no puedo dejar de quererte por mucho que lo intente
no puedo, olvidame tú. Que bonito cuando el sol derramo sobre nosotros esa luz que se apagó y que
se perdia. Si tú quieres quiero yo palpitar de otra manera que nos lleve sin
timón lo que nos queda. Sentiremos tal vez frio si no existe poesía en tus ojos,
tu boca tu sabia que es mio, mio. Y el tiempo nos pasa casi inardvertido golpea

con fuerza lo tuyo y lo mio que pena ignorarlo y dejarlo perdido amor.
Olvidame tú que yo no puedo, no voy a entender el amor sin tí.
Olvidame tú que yo no puedo dejar de quererte por mucho que lo intente
no puedo, olvidame tú....

Song Credits: Adele and Miguel Bose.