Whenever I Still Think of You

And you, always you, so attach to my soul, to my mind, so close to my heart. You became to be the explanation of my existence. Songs are playing here and there, mostly everywhere. Love songs for me to hear and fully understand the meaning of love.

We all look for love.

We look for an angel. We look the brightness of a sweet smile.

We look to feel lost into those eyes, bringing peace and calm.

We look for some warm arms, where we can feel lost, and dream forever.

We look for that little piece of breath, which brings a meaning of everything that happens around us.

We look for that companion, who we can show our weakness and feel protected.

We look for whom we can be strong to make it through life.

It’s a blessing to find the kind of man, who is willing to walk next to me, no matter what. I look, and look till a day I forgot what I was looking for.Then you walked in, standing in front of me. Love did find me; I didn’t know how or when it just came in. My heart started to flight, happy I am. My heart started to cry, why? the sadness is coming to my mind. A true love… does it only comes once in a life time? Does it?

Everything has changed since the day you were gone. I still dream about you, about the days of gold, where I could swear to the blue sky how eternally happy I felt just because of you.

WHENEVER

When I see you there on my course far from danger

When I see you there I find my salvation

I know that we have said

Then whenever I see you there

When I see you there standing like a missing angel

When I see you there my heart stops and than starts

You’ll always remind the same

 Whenever I see you there

Your voice is the very texture of memory

And you know it rings

It rings in my mind

The time of my life

Voice in mind

The ache in my heart

Feelingness through

The shortness of breath

That lies within

The thunder inside me

My lover

My friend

Every time I close my eyes

I see signals

Whenever I feel a band

And I here sound

Whenever I too forgot we can

I’ll have you there always

 

I had you, maybe I will …… again in a different life.

I Haven't Met You Once Again.

I am having this feeling, down inside my heart. Breath taking makes me feel, I should try not to close my eyes.  Loving couples walk in front of me, sharing a love that once I had. I feel happy for what I see, a sweet emotion, beautiful wishes for them I feel to give. In my heart a reminder what meant to be.

I turn the radio on, a song for me to hear and find out what those words will soon once again will mean to me……

 

HAVEN'T MET YOU YET

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to loose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know some day that it’ll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I’ll never give up
I guess it's half timing and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come outta nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And baby your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all’s fair in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get

Oh you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get yeah
I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh promise you kid to give so much more than I get
I said love love love love love love love
I just haven't met you yet

Just when you think all is alright.

     This Past month I have been away from here, my blog!! My experiences have been intense in this past month.

     I am so glad I got the visit of my mother, She is a wonderful woman, each time I think so, for her support and love she have gave me, especially even after when I came out with who I am to her. My family and brothers have been very supportive. My aunt visit has brought myself upside down, on a psychosis stage of mind. She is good, I know... but her religious upbringing is killing me. They are the kind of people who want to see people like me dead and in hell. I feel bad for my mom but I can’t wait for them to come back to their home; and the next visit of my mother will be great as we always do. (I share this between other things had been going on).

     Aside of there, I have being enjoying a new hobby that I always liked “Photography” with this online IPhone App, I have discovered a new way to make pictures, meet friends and see between the clouds of the mind, how wonderful the world can be getting to meet new online friends that have made me wish if just they could be closer, and or maybe have a date. I know it is a day dreaming, but as long as dreams is better than reality I will keep dreaming, one day will come when I don’t have to dream anymore, because reality is much better.

     The city where I live, it has been a little of a challenge to make friends, but things can change and it has being this year; things move different ways as we sometimes think. Options open, and a positive stage of mind is good to have.

     I would like to share some snapshots of this wonderful world I found full of Love, Peace, Fun, and just a little of everything:

Instagram Photo Album.

(click on the link for My Album)

 *Photos Rights Reserved From The Original Owners.

Gates of Magic

 Not too long ago a sweet thought arrived to me. Another illusion, maybe it is just a wish, So I do think. Exchange of words, here and there without knows what it will bring. I still remember the night, when I looked up, the words were shining at the sky, with a hand full of starts. It was like those endless nights, when all seems just right, when is hard to leave, even if it is already time to go to sleep.

Taking chances, I believe, like two hungry souls, sharing all what we could, in that moment words were the energy of our souls. What we have in life, that really make us glow, what we don’t have that make us in others to look for. I still remember that night, I didn’t want to go to sleep, because of that mystical connection, I knew it is going vanish the very moment when we went to sleep, only hoping that in a dream we still feel that mystical connection, experienced before the time being.

Since that moment, silly me I keep thinking. Since that moment an internal battle inside of me insists to feel what the caring, loving and companion from another man to feel. In this world full of distractions, what really matters is what we give and receive. For what do we really live? It is to see in other eyes, the joyful moment, to know and say…. For YOU I DO EXIST.

Time keeps passing by, nothing to, neither to believe, just keep taking chances and dreaming what is taking time; by itself the fog around, soon it will disappear, and behind those clouds, to find out what is meant to be.

My thoughts are all around you; nothing I can do, to resist. If I will do it, I will be denying the opportunity of two man enjoying the moment to say How Happy I Feel, Because You Are Here With Me.

The Longest Song

One day, Quiet long time ago, I was listening so many different song, and I wonder, Can I write in a song my thoughts. The product of this is a combination of many song on my own words. I did title

The longest Song.

Every day, I think life is like a song we write, is like a book of experiences.
Every day, I think today will be a good day, but I still can't see where the Sun is shining.

I wish to be like the man I was before
After falling apart, into deep sad moments
I found the way to wake up and Shine
I found in me the Charm to look at the stars
And find a Man who like me for who I am.

Memories of the past,
is the story of a yesterday.
That made me believe about a wonderful time.

My long story,
my love song
It was played to me,
to make me believe,
About that moment
A full live of happiness
coming to my window
Long time ago.

I need, love, love, love.
Did I feel like a fool?
Was I kissing a fool?
All what I get, all what I gave.

Memories always living in me
It is all that happiness, that once
Finally I was available to feel
For first and only time
I get to meet the happiness of love.

Was that my only chance
Only once in life
You fall in love
Only once, and never more
Only once you give your soul

Once is gone
Nothing comes to me no more
I have walked 500 miles
And I will walk 500 more
To find out
What else is there,
Or there is no more.

I life full of precious memories
But still a broken heart
Afraid to live again
Lonely everyday I feel
The man I loved
Sink a knife in my soul

I want to find the Sun above
To take me away
On a deep sleep
Till the day,
When a true man
Can take me away
And can show me
No longer I am alone.

Blue moon, you are standing alone
Write for me this song
And show me a man for my own. 

 

Moments of Life

HAVE YOU EVER FEEL

Have you ever feel?
A deep, deep pressure, undertaking breath away. That makes you go down your knees, that makes you wrap around yourself with your arms, to just feel at the border line. Where everything stops for a second. No time, No space, Nothing inside your mind, Nothing anywhere. To suddenly feel, Right away to stand up, With Open Arms, Face the sky, let the air to flow all over you. You feel to be on the top of the world; and you enjoy, the warm of the sun on your skin, The refreshing wind whispering in your ears; for a second, everything is perfect, you feel excessively happy, bringing you to the point to cry, Cry of happiness. I do exist, I feel alive. You feel so powerful, and infinite, so great for just to be. Feel free of everything, feel that I am here, I am here with you, My existence it is no longer in vane. I do exist because of you, I do exist for you, to be with you and only you.

Have you ever...................??